Obsessions Are a Bad Thing... Aren't They??

I've got to stop obsessing over her..... I mean come on its over MOVE ON DUDE!!!.... yet why do I look at her blog atleast once a day? Why do my thoughts always stray towards her? Why do I miss her so much? Why do I constantly pick up my phone and think about calling her? Why can't I just move on and be happy..

I know that she's moved on... she's perfectly happy... it's just sad that it had to end in the way it did.... i wish i could take it all back... wish I could just rewind the clock & make things the way they were before that awfull day...

There are so many things i want to say to you... I know that I didn't appreciate you the way I should have, I took you for granted and now you hate me... you hate me...

she fucking hates me..........................................................................................

Being Used And the Weirdness of Life

so I've come to realize something... for past few months i was being USED. I was used as a shoulder to lean on, used as a substitiution for someone who wasn't there & last but not the least for intimacy.isn't it amazing what people will go through just to make themselves feel good...... A once friend of mine once wrote a couple of months back on her blog about what she thought of INFIDELITY and how much she hated it and how she thought that anyone who was thinking of doing it should refrain from doing so.. this was rather Ironic as she cheated on her own boyfriend with her bestfriend... isn't it brilliant how quirky and cynical life can be.... the same person who was against something ended up doing it. hahahahaha.....

P.s & for those of u who are wondering who the bestfriend was??? yes it was me.... hence the whole hatred for being used... but i've got to say tht it was partly my fault as well beause i very well knew wat i was getting into... I should've never agreed to do what I did.. I should've been stronger and helped her out in her moment of weakness... I should've been a better friend....

Life is just plain weird!!!

Pretty Exciting Weekend

so i guess i had a really exciting action packed weekend. Friday evening was spent @ rugby practices where we were brutally murdered by this new fitness caoch of ours. oh man was he a drill sergeant!! i felt so ashamed because i always fail to finish the tasks tht he set out for us.. Man was i beat after tht practice session. come saturday morning i woke with the usual aches & pains tht proceed a rugby practice. i took my mom out marketing as dad was rendered out of order due to a hernia operation.. oh crap i'll have to do everything now :( ... then in the evening went to watch the bradby with a couple of my friends... end up running into so many ppl i know.. my cousin brother was playing prop forward for trinity so glad to see them win the first leg of the bradby. lets hope we get the same result for the next leg too!!...... got home @ around 8ish & got online .. chatted for a bit & went to bed...

Sunday was an exiting day becos I was waiting to watch the CR & FC vs. Kandy SC rugby match which the local channel eye had promised to broadcast.. the morning was spent me husking COCONUTS yes MOI oh god hehehe.. hey but i did manage to husk all of them without a fuss... mom made the usual sunday special lunch which was delicious as always.... & then it was game time.... i switched on the tv only to find out tht no match was being broadcasted... CURSE these Idiots who authorize powercuts. Apparently there was a powercut in Kandy therefore the Channel Eye ppl cudnt broadcast the match... HMMPH got damn idiots!!.... when they finally showed the match it was in the second half Kandy was leading 15-10 & i was feelling the creepiness of defeat again.... but then CR played beautifully to bring the score to 15 all... & i was @ the edge of my seat hoping for a miracle... tht CR wud beat Kandy in Kandy after wat lyk 10 years!!!! but it just wasnt to be... Kandy managed to put in a penalty by Saliya kumara and take the lead to 18-15.. CR managed to get to inches away from the Kandy line before tht idiot of a referee Fitzgerald had to blow the whistle signalling the end of the game... sigh... wat an enthralling game of rugby it was..... brilliantly contested by both sides... big hits by the forwards & sum brilliant displays of running by the backlines of both teams.....