Musings of a Wannabe Good Boy & Shopping Sprees

So well ive been trying to be on my best behaviour for the past two weeks... sigh and 1 and a half to go.... never knew that being good was this hard man.... sheesh... you try getting up at 4 in the frickin morning... trying to shove food & water into yourself.. then pray... go to sleep.. wake up... do chores.. laze about the house.. pray.. do the same format... pray.. same format up untill break-fast time then eat a bit... pray... eat ALOT :P lol.... and then go to mosque for prayers.. sheesh honestly men... & all this tym abstaining from all the bad tempting things... sigh.... so that has been my routine for the past 2 weeks....

In other news.... sadly i dint have tht dream again... sigh :(.... oh i went shopping yesterday hmm... now im not what you would call a Metrosexual or anything but i do have my moments of good taste :P. sigh.... but its so hard to shop when you are on a budget.... so i just needed to buy a couple of trousers for uni which starts next month and a denim... well the denim was sorted out the previous day as me dad had gone & bought one of those LEE Trim Denims and decided it was too hip for him :P lol his misfortune was my fortune.. was able to nick it from him hehehehe.. id just lyk to state... men & women shop in Majorly different ways.. before a guy goes shopping he knows what exactly he wants to buy. so lyk me he walks into the shop spots what he wants & purchases it. theres no "honey what do u think of this one or that one". sheeesh honestly if thers one thing i hate its shopping with women.... rather loose my patience with them... 

So there i was @ this snazzy clothing store in Mahabage called Fashion Collection and man was i amazed... there collection of T-Shirts was WOW!! i soooo wanted to get some sigh.... but alas my stingy little purse dint allow it.... saw some splendid caps too.. O..o O..o and belts.... and for the piece-di-resistaunce (im sorry if i got tht wrong, my french SUCKS) there were these convo's to DIE for!! even RD wudve gone mental if he saw those pairs of shoes..... sigh... oh to be rich....

Anyways thats what my lifes been like... oh and i need to find myself a Final Year Project sigh... shit scared about starting uni next month.... hope i dont crash... sigh....

P.S was introduced to this REALLY cool someone last night by a good friend of mine.... had a really interesting & long chat with her.. Amazing how life keeps throwing u curve balls :P lol..

well thts it from me... untill next time.. Oh tht reminds me i need to finish off my Letting Go post

Wish I Knew Who you Are Dream Girl

So i had this really weird dream last night... i dont remember much of it.. but i do remember seeing this friend of mine Sharon in it... but thats not the weird bit.... that was me hugging a girl... but i cant remember who that girl was... all i know is she was shorter than me... average build... thts not too thin not too fat btw... & i was hugging her so much & she me... that i dint want to let go.. it just felt soo good.. soo perfect.. soo peacefull... i wanted to stay like that forever....

Pissed OFF!!!

so what? now im not supposed to have an opinion?? sheeesh!!!!
you know what?? fine i WONT read your online journal anymore....
HAPPY????

I Have Decided!!

i have decided.......
im not going to comment on your journal anymore..
im not going to send you text messages to comfort you anymore..
im not going to initiate online chat conversation...
im not going to try to keep in touch with you anymore..
im not going to care about you anymore....
im done thinking about you...
i've moved on....

Letting Go Part 1

So after much thought about this whole incident i got involved in a couple of months back I've finally decided to blog about it. it may not be pretty but i think i need to get it off my chest, so here we go.. please bare with me on this... :-)


It started with a whisper in the dark, a sentence which was spread between 2 lonely souls. "If you could have me right now, what would you do?" that sentence would forever change the lives of these 2 individuals. they were like any 2 regular souls, but with complicated personalities which bounded them together and brought them closer towards each other... "All right cut it out, stop screwing around with me" he said. but deep down inside he was in away hoping she wasn't because he knew that this could not happen, he could not have her whom he had been in love with for the past 2 years as he knew that she had already promised herself to another.. "I'm not kidding .. i mean it. If you could have me with you right now, what would u do to me?". We all have our moments of weakness i presume.. if you were put in that situation. if you were placed in his shoes what would you have done?

Here was everything he had dreamed of, everything he wanted placed right infront of him. the girl of his dreams, the one who he had been thinking about for so long finally admitting to him that she did have feelings for him, but the only glitch was that she was already with someone. He gave into his temptations and what began as an innocent conversation between 2 bestfriends turned into a steamy & sexy love note. chat logs were created in secret, text messages were sent between the 2 & what something of friendship turned into something more.. they tried to brush it off stating that they need to get each other out of their systems & this was the only way to do it... just give into their temptations just this once and go back to normal... how naive they were or rather how stupid. From the moment their lips met he was hooked! he couldn't believe how something which felt so right was so wrong.. he wanted to taste every bit of her from her tender moist lips..... to be continued

Random B.S

so here i am still @ work waiting for my phone to ring so that i can go for this gig with a friend of mine... yipeee im finally going out hehehehe... TGIF!!! hope its a good show... couple of good line ups involved.. Daddy.. Hollow... Manuk.. Azlan & Sanka... yeah so shud be good... now if only ishi gives me tht bloody call that she promised hehehe.... well lifes been generally alryt these past few weeks... i've finally made my peace with Ms. Best friend... well we aren't as close as we were before but still something is better than nothing right?... anyways i've put what happened between us behind me and am finally looking forward instead of reminiscing about the past.. stared reading www.kottu.org and was really glad i found out about it.. been an avid blog reader ever since... there are some which i just keep reading... divine lady, cyanide (who happens to be my aunt by some strange twist of fate), Rhythmic Diasopora. Ooh and not to mention little miss 69 well the 69 part is in french i assume hehehe... she s been taking the blogosphere by storm with her blog the pleasure principle... oh my... and what does she talk about?? none other than SEX!!... no wonder everybody's hyped up hehehehe..... man she is the first SRI LANKAN woman to be so honest and open about the going ons in her bed hehe..... simply amazing read.... anyways after much talk of sex being the most talked about things in the blogosphere i've decided to write up what happened between Ms. Bestfriend & Me... the whole story of how & when it all happened...... so yeah just wanted to say.. damn now i have to sit down & write it..... crap... nvr been that good a writer... anyways.. will put up that post as soon as i write it up... & yes its 100% true... but its not as good as 69's posts but well its wat happened to me :$.....

until we meet again... adios... aiyo ishi!!! where the crap are u men!!!

oh... P.S. i kinda met someone.... well not met exactly... just been talking to a friend alot lately & we've been getting really close... i even asked her out for a movie... just a general thing but who knows where it might lead.... she is by far the most sweetest, most adorable girl i've ever met..

ok ok thts enough then... ishi just msged... no its not her btw.. if u were thinking that... i ll kepp u ppl in suspense a little longer :) hehehehe... well im off.. ciao...

Icarus - Your Lullaby

This is a song by one of the most talented lyrical bands I think that Sri Lanka has ever produced.. It's especially something i hold dear & quite nostalgic for me..

Lay your head down
On my shoulders
And close your eyes
Tell me softly
That you’ll love me
For the rest of our lives
Let me kiss theTears on your face
You don’t have to cry
Just listen to me
When Im singing
Your lullaby

When I watch you sleeping
There’s no place on earth
I’d rather beI can feel your heart beating
And I know that it’s calling out to me
I don’t say this much
But I love your touch
More than words
Who needs heaven and
Who needs angels
When you’re in the world

When I watch you sleeping
There’s no place on earth I’d rather be
I can feel your heart beating
And I know that it’s calling out to me
And this is your lullaby
Your lullaby
Your lullaby
And this is your lullaby
Your lullaby
Your lullaby

When I watch you sleeping
There’s no place on earth I’d rather be
I can feel your heart beating
And I know that it’s calling out to me
I will keep you
Safe forever
Just close your eyes…