Why, Why, Why???

God why have u made women so difficult to handle?? even after u sit down and explain to them that we as men do not intentionally ignore them!! sometimes we have things to do that we cant stay away from.. why cant they see the big picture? you know that i care about you deeply but yet u hurt me by ignoring me when i did nothing wrong.. i explained to you very nicely and lovingly the reasons why i couldnt talk to at that time but NO u had to have it your way!! Why darling?? Why? 

December Yearnings

As some of you wudve realized theres been a changed going through my blog and the posts ive added recently.. Its because ive changed... its because im for once actually Happy and the cause for that happiness resides thousands of miles away in a little land called La La Land.. its funny how by a strange twist of fate or in this case a mutual friend whom im wondering whether to thank immensely or throttle his neck... that two people actually met and hit it off... its actually quite scary because these kind of things are not common in real life.. these are stuff for the movies.. but no its actually happening we met we collided we actually rocked each others world.. its lyk everything fell into place... she was the missing piece thath something something that he was looking for all his life.. and he was the unexpected encounter who shattered her properly made plans asunder... the more they spoke the more they got closer and closer until they actually realized that they were falling for each other... 

When this happened they both panicked! this cud not be happening cud it? how can two people who ve nvr met each other fall for one another.. but they cudnt escape this sense of happiness and bliss... and decided on a plan.. the plan was for them to meet up when she wud be coming down from La La Land in December... untill that time they would be using the time to get to know each other more... the problem was the more the talked the more they got closer telling each other secrets that they had never shared with others before... he told her of his past encouters and shatterings of his brutalized heart and she told him of her past misfortunate experiences... they told each other of their plans for their respective futures and thats where things became a little hazy... you see he was some what of a floater who dint really know what he wanted where as she was a more methodical, strategic person who had a plan.. after much debate and talk he decided that the one thing he wanted in this world was to be with her and that he would go to any lengths to get what he wanted.. so the floater became a planner... and she figured out a way to include him in her plans and they started contemplating on a future together..

This future would all depend on decembers meeting where this would be clarified and decided.. but deep down inside they both knew what would happen... she d give him her concerned thoughtfull look... he d give her his boyish grin... and they d be hooked.. the future is already decided... he s found the savior of his soul and a love that would make him truely happy forever and she s found that someone who she d care for like none other and who knew how to make her happy... They both know its gonna take alot of work.. but its gonna be worth it at the end of the day when they she s their tightly snugged in his arms... and he feels the warmth of her body  slowly bring life into his once cold heart again....

I found what ive been searching for...for so long... and now, nothings gonna take it away from me.. Nothing!!... My thoughts and heart are yours forever.... i cant wait to meet you my love in december and embark on this journey we have instore for us...

Possibilities

....is it possible that someone can actually love me

....is it possible that two people can connect so quickly within such a short period of time

....is it possible that i could find someone that makes me want to be a better person

....is it possible that the greatest thing i yearn for is to have you in my arms right now

....is it possible that i went through all the shit i experienced just to find you

....is it possible that someone can actually make me happy

....is it possible that the only time im truely at peace is when im talking to you

....is it possible that you make me not want to be a floater no more

....is it possible that im the luckiest guy in the whole wide world

....is it possible that im falling for you

....is it possible that im scared shitless by this situation we are in

....is it possible that this is ACTUALLY happening

....is it possible...............

Musings of a Wannabe Good Boy & Shopping Sprees

So well ive been trying to be on my best behaviour for the past two weeks... sigh and 1 and a half to go.... never knew that being good was this hard man.... sheesh... you try getting up at 4 in the frickin morning... trying to shove food & water into yourself.. then pray... go to sleep.. wake up... do chores.. laze about the house.. pray.. do the same format... pray.. same format up untill break-fast time then eat a bit... pray... eat ALOT :P lol.... and then go to mosque for prayers.. sheesh honestly men... & all this tym abstaining from all the bad tempting things... sigh.... so that has been my routine for the past 2 weeks....

In other news.... sadly i dint have tht dream again... sigh :(.... oh i went shopping yesterday hmm... now im not what you would call a Metrosexual or anything but i do have my moments of good taste :P. sigh.... but its so hard to shop when you are on a budget.... so i just needed to buy a couple of trousers for uni which starts next month and a denim... well the denim was sorted out the previous day as me dad had gone & bought one of those LEE Trim Denims and decided it was too hip for him :P lol his misfortune was my fortune.. was able to nick it from him hehehehe.. id just lyk to state... men & women shop in Majorly different ways.. before a guy goes shopping he knows what exactly he wants to buy. so lyk me he walks into the shop spots what he wants & purchases it. theres no "honey what do u think of this one or that one". sheeesh honestly if thers one thing i hate its shopping with women.... rather loose my patience with them... 

So there i was @ this snazzy clothing store in Mahabage called Fashion Collection and man was i amazed... there collection of T-Shirts was WOW!! i soooo wanted to get some sigh.... but alas my stingy little purse dint allow it.... saw some splendid caps too.. O..o O..o and belts.... and for the piece-di-resistaunce (im sorry if i got tht wrong, my french SUCKS) there were these convo's to DIE for!! even RD wudve gone mental if he saw those pairs of shoes..... sigh... oh to be rich....

Anyways thats what my lifes been like... oh and i need to find myself a Final Year Project sigh... shit scared about starting uni next month.... hope i dont crash... sigh....

P.S was introduced to this REALLY cool someone last night by a good friend of mine.... had a really interesting & long chat with her.. Amazing how life keeps throwing u curve balls :P lol..

well thts it from me... untill next time.. Oh tht reminds me i need to finish off my Letting Go post

Wish I Knew Who you Are Dream Girl

So i had this really weird dream last night... i dont remember much of it.. but i do remember seeing this friend of mine Sharon in it... but thats not the weird bit.... that was me hugging a girl... but i cant remember who that girl was... all i know is she was shorter than me... average build... thts not too thin not too fat btw... & i was hugging her so much & she me... that i dint want to let go.. it just felt soo good.. soo perfect.. soo peacefull... i wanted to stay like that forever....

Pissed OFF!!!

so what? now im not supposed to have an opinion?? sheeesh!!!!
you know what?? fine i WONT read your online journal anymore....
HAPPY????

I Have Decided!!

i have decided.......
im not going to comment on your journal anymore..
im not going to send you text messages to comfort you anymore..
im not going to initiate online chat conversation...
im not going to try to keep in touch with you anymore..
im not going to care about you anymore....
im done thinking about you...
i've moved on....