Who are we kidding?

life is complicated... life is weird... life tends to fuck you a lot... I've made many mistakes in life... but one thing I've staunchly believed was all people have some good in them.. nobody is purely evil... there must have been something that had happened to make them that way... my faith has always been in people rather than in life.. but i could be speaking bullshit here... i just didn't know anything anymore.. don't know what to believe? what to do? I feel like what i felt last year.... maybe its the weather..maybe its what has happened during the past few weeks... but i sense depression in the air... i am a void... empty... lost.. last year i almost took my life.. it was bad.. pathetic... and if it wasn't for certain close friends who knows what would have happened... i thought id never go down that road again.. told myself that i wudnt... but i dont know...

don't you ever want to just crawl into a tiny space and die.. escape from this world... run away.. start a new... erase your past...... i just don't have the faith or hope to go on anymore... what is the purpose of all this suffering? why are we here? what are we supposed to do? why do we have to suffer?

oh fuck it i just don't care anymore..... FUCK YOU ! and FUCK OFF !