The Chronicles of the Boobie Mug

Well yesterday when i came back home from driving lessons i found out that my favorite blue mug had been demolished by my father.. accidentally.. apparently he had tried to take his mug from this little mug rack kinda thingy which holds all our mugs and then the entire thing had toppled over smashing all but 2 of the mugs.. the one he was holding and my mum's mug.. which left me with no mug.. sniff sniff.. so i had to end up using this mug... this was given to me by a old office colleague when i was working there. she went to Malaysia on holiday and brought each of us guys at office a mug lyk this. ive been keeping this safely in its box but now i get to use it.. plus i have the perfect excuse as well..
MUAHAHAHAHA i know.. pure genius init

DON'T PANIC

Did you hear that!! Booming in the distance...
well according to http://www.adaderana.lk/

"Fire at Kelanitissa

Kealanitissa power station was supposed to have been hit by bombs dropped by an LTT light air craft and there is a fire as a result confirm defense sources"

"Firing in Colombo a precautionary measure

Sri Lanka Defense forces fired at suspected LTTE light air in Colombo as a precautionary measure short while ago."

"LTTE alight air crafts drops two bombs

LTTE light air craft drops two bombs to Taladdi area in Mannar says Militery spokesman"

To everyone out there i hope you are safe!!! love you all

DREAM THEATER - Forsaken

awesome song... was just introduced to this by Mackie.. thanks bro.. freaky vid as well..

A Very Shitty End to a Very Good Night...

Sigh.. those fucking fucktards!!! how could they allow something like that to happen sigh... Taj Samudra SUCKS!!! worst service EVER!! sigh.. im definitely not going to park there ever again... fucking fucktards.... sigh... i went for Onstage again today.. thanks to a friend of mine.. hehe bugger calls me up yesterday and says dude have an extrs ticket for tomorrow wanna come? but please bring the transport. i was like awesome free ticket lets roll.. came there had an awesome times.. the music was tripping.. it was Soloist night, but the house band called "Black" was exceptional!! they were brilliant.. the talent was good too.. really enjoyed myself.. oh ran into Ms. X-bestfriend again.. errmm.. it was a little bit less weirder this time than the last.. i think im finally getting ok with this.. i mean we did start chatting again.. but i dont think we'll ever go back to what we were... she looked nice.. was wearing this cute little orange dress... anyways... moving on.. so well the show ended.. and we were on our way out.. my friend and i.. came near my bike to find my helmet missing!!! GONE!! VANISHED!! KAPUT!! ARRRGGHHH WTF!!! we spoke to the guards and they were like sir you should look after your own belongings we are not responsible. WTF!! and you what brilliant there was a tuk tuk next to my bike and it was ransacked as well.. apparently there's this gang that comes and steals all these stuff, but the guards can't do anything about it. bloody fucktards!! the whole lot of them!!

and to make matters more brilliant someone had stolen a PRADO out of the car park!! hahaha can you imagine that! a PRADO!! a SUV daaaaammmnnn... thats just bizarre imagine the guards telling the owner sorry sir we are not responsible... ARSEHOLES!!!!! so i had no choice, my friend and i had to come home on the bike with one helmet... i wore that and thank god the arseholes hadn't taken my rain coat.. my friend wore that. imagine going through the streets of Colombo at 12.30 am... going past army and police check points all the way home... man i was scarred shitless... and worst yet now i have to tell my parents tomorrow why theres a helmet missing...sigh... such a brilliant night.. came to such a pathetic end.. arrrgghh.. CURSE THE BASTARDS WHO STOLE MY HELMET!! and CURSE THE GUARDS OF TAJ SAMUDRA and last but not the least CURSE TAJ SAMUDRA!!!! FUcktarDs the LOT of them!! hmph!

Who are we kidding?

life is complicated... life is weird... life tends to fuck you a lot... I've made many mistakes in life... but one thing I've staunchly believed was all people have some good in them.. nobody is purely evil... there must have been something that had happened to make them that way... my faith has always been in people rather than in life.. but i could be speaking bullshit here... i just didn't know anything anymore.. don't know what to believe? what to do? I feel like what i felt last year.... maybe its the weather..maybe its what has happened during the past few weeks... but i sense depression in the air... i am a void... empty... lost.. last year i almost took my life.. it was bad.. pathetic... and if it wasn't for certain close friends who knows what would have happened... i thought id never go down that road again.. told myself that i wudnt... but i dont know...

don't you ever want to just crawl into a tiny space and die.. escape from this world... run away.. start a new... erase your past...... i just don't have the faith or hope to go on anymore... what is the purpose of all this suffering? why are we here? what are we supposed to do? why do we have to suffer?

oh fuck it i just don't care anymore..... FUCK YOU ! and FUCK OFF !

Mood Phrases

here are a couple of phrases that state my current mind set right now.....

* hanging by a thread...

* testing my patience...

* trying to stay calm...

* falling into a never ending pit hole...

* feeling really depressed...

* loneliness has returned...

* feeling abandoned...

* feeling brain dead...

* needing a drink really really bad...

sigh........ the rest i just cant put into words....

For You I'd Wait, 'till Kingdom Come!!

This is going out to the person who called me Gay for listening to Coldplay, incidently they happen to be my favorite band.. just love there stuff... so this one's for u Sabrina... If listening to Coldplay makes me gay then so be it!! :P

Til Kingdom Come

Steal my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time
My time has come
Let me in
Unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing
And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

The Waiting Commences

So now the waiting begins... i wait and wait and wait and wait...

the ball is in your court... its your move...

I ll be waiting...

Pain!! Pain!! Fucking Pain!!

Pardon my french but im in total pain right now... my jaw feels like tiny little construction workers are drilling into my teeth using power tools... arrrgghh.... a combination of wisdom teeth coming out and a bad molar tooth that needs to be checked.. sigh... on to of that im sick as well.. bloody phlem cough and bad bad cold arrrgghh... its like someone once said, when i get ill i get ill BAD!!... sigh somebody kill me NOW!!

Uni Day 2

So today was my second day at uni... was kind of dreading it too.. had lectures at 9 am sigh.... and had lectures the entire day.. well first up was project management with Mr. Cyprus.. it was alryt i guess... then a little bit of the long haired dude and he spoke a bit on our final year project... still scares the beegeezez out of me... but he let us off early so we were just loitering around uni.. meeting up with the old buggers... and then this idiot of a friend dragged me off for a booze.. YES having White Label at 12 in the afternoon is a brilliant way to start your afternoon session... i was on an empty stomach as well so ordered this mixed rice as a bite..... so was munching on that and enjoying the booze hehehehe.... thank god we just had 1 bottle otherwise we'd never have gone for the afternoon session... came back to uni... ate lunch... and was sobered up by then.... but hehehe did keep kind of nodding off during the lecture.. i blame it on Information Overload rather than the wee amount of alcohol in my system.. the next and final lecture was utter crap!! dont like this new lecturer at all.. he s got no rapport with the students... well then after that was over was just hangin around once again... and got hungry again... so went to eat... had a mix of egg rotti, parata, egg hopper.. yum yum yum hehehe.... yes yes i know ive been hogging like anything these days.... must start working out again.. sigh... thank god tomorrow is a holiday.. Yipee no lectures... must go visit grandpa again....

D Day is upon us

so today was the day i started my lectures for my final year... had 2 lectures in the afternoon.. one called Design Patterns by Mr. RockerWannabeAbsentMindedProfessor... shit long name init.. hehe... then this module called Concurrent Programming.. something i cant really remember.. some new lecturer absolutely hopeless.. but the entire thing scarred the shit out of me.. i got up in the morning with a really bad cough... oh man it hurt lyk a bitch.... so i got some cough syrup and that really did wonders.... coughed out most of the phlem... then went to uni in the afternoon... first lect was pretty all right but made a huge mistake of having lunch before it.. hence kept dozing off in the middle of the lecturers talk... the 2nd one was scary .. i can finally say that i remember JACK of any of the knowledge passed on to me... sigh..... couldn't remember anything... i need to learn this stuff all over again... sigh....... then came home.... watched some more of supernatural... oh man.. the new season is brilliant.... always a fan of that show... must download the new Heroes epi as well.... knee still kinda hurts... i think it something to do with my knee cap... should get it checked out... but dont want to alarm the 'rents especially with this situation with my grandpa.. he was discharged today.. but the doctors were like well theres nothing more we can do.. i think its his heart.. anyways they told us to keep him happy as ever... must go visit him again....

Weird Week

So ive been having a really odd week... well u could say 2 weeks i guess.. after the halabaloo of last week.. i finally got a message from france which really made me smile and uplift my spirit... but i wonder if she's been getting all my messages that i sent her... i hope so... oh well the weekend was a total disaster... and well i heard that my granddad's been admitted to hospital so went to see him today... he was so happy to see us.. i hope he gets well... although he is 94 and has lived a pretty good and long life... but still.. he s my granddad and i love him.. hope he gets well... oh i started driving lessons finally... its been going alryt.. the instructors kind of strict but he s good.. must continue and finish it off... so i start lectures tomorrow... hmm.. mixed feelings... sigh.... boy i miss her... freaky how much a person can miss someone... sigh.... its been a difficult 2 weeks... the knee's acting up again... sigh... been hurting me quite a bit... results of playing rugby i guess.. busted left ankle.. busted right knee...  this post is all over the place... guess im all over the place... sigh.. i ll just leave you with this... from my favorite band ever...

"Just because im Losing, doesn't mean im Lost"

TNL Onstage

went for TNL Onstage last night... it was absolutely bull shit... sigh... almost all theb ands sucked sigh.... what a dreadfull day and even more terrible night... sigh... waste of my money..

Come Back to Me

sigh.......fuck i miss you.... :( :( come back to me please..... i still love you no matter what.... sigh...

Filter!! boy, Filter!!!

sigh.... crap... i always tend to say things without thinking about the consequences sigh...... wow what a day... my girlfriend breaks up with me and jets off to france... i win 2 free tickets for tnl onstage and i had to go to uni... arrggh!!! and the worst thing is... im on air.. the entire country is listening to me on the Big Show and the RJ asks me so FINrod how u been? and i go... not good.. my girlfriend just broke up with me... FUUUUUCK!! why the hell did i have to say tht?? next thing i know even an ex flame txts me and even an ex friend.... FUCK wonder who else heard me on air.... this is baaaaaaad... i need to go find a place to bury myself in....ARRRRGGGHHH!!! 

Appreciation

so it comes down to this... i dont appreciate people hmm.... you know what?? maybe it is true.. i mean this is the 2nd person to have loved me and told me that i dont appreciate them.... so who knows maybe it is true... maybe i really dont appreciate people...

Behold I am Mr. Bubble Burster.... 

Waiting.....

Once you calm down and think things through then contact me untill then ill be waiting for you... ive let someone i loved be taken away from me before theres noway in HELL im gonna let u be taken from me either... i love you.. and i always will... u kno where to find me...

You Dont Give on the Person you love especially if she says that she loves you too....

Confused, Perplexed, Mind Boggling

what just happened?? :S :S :S :S why did you get angry with me?? just because i didn't want you or me to see other people?? :S :S what the hell's going on? sure i know we may not be together together yet but i thought that we were together :S oh god even that's confusing.... and i didn't even get angry :S :S i was just thoroughly confused becos if u loved me then why in the world would u want me or you to see other people :S :S...... whats going on here??? :S :S :S :S

oh fuck!!! :S

Back to Uni

So today i just decided to come back to uni and hang out with my friends again... b4 the hecticness of my final year starts.. it was fun.. we laughed.. made fun of ppl.... laughed some more... ate alot...

you always tend to have a great time when in the company of some really good people... but even with all that deep down i knew i was missing her... i kept wishing she was here with me instead in stupid ol malaysia.. i wanted for her to experience the fun that i was having...

sigh....... i miss her...