HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL!!!

Hope this year is bountiful and fruitful and filled with happiness and joy!!

Have a good one!! =D

Plumb - Only You (Blush)

I don't know why but I had a flash last night and this song popped into my head.. was introduced to it by a hmmm... friend.. about an year or two ago... the lyrics are really nice...


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When you look at me I start to blush
and all that I can say is you and us
oh baby I'm so afraid to be in love
with you, with you...

I wanna be in love with only you
I wanna watch the sky turn grey then blue
I wanna know the kiss thats always new
I wanna be in love with only you
just you

When stars are falling dark
will light the way
will hit the ground and fall
into the shade
ill light the night with fire
and run away

I wanna be in love with only you
I wanna watch the sky turn grey then blue
I wanna know the kiss thats always new
I wanna be in love with only you

I wanna be in love with you
I wanna be in love (I wanna be in love)
I wanna be in love with you
I wanna be in love (I wanna be in love)

I wanna be in love with you...

I wanna be in love with only you
I wanna watch the sky turn grey then blue
I wanna know the kiss thats always new
I wanna be in love with only you

Just you
I wanna be
just you yeah

If Something Like This Happens to You What Would You Do?

So I was reading this really interesting post by Court Jester and decided to post this questions..

Say you were living in your house.... and well this family came and asked for refuge from you and you being the most generous and hospitable people offered them to stay in your house... then they started inviting more n more of their relatives to come and stay in your house without your permission even... then finally one day asks you to move out.. what would you do? how would you react?...

Makes you think doesn't it....

I Should Be Working on my Assignment BUT...

I'm sitting here writing this post..

I'm listening to Jack Johnson who's entire discography I just finished downloading..

I'm downloading a movie called Stranger than Fiction and a Rugby match.. the Celtic Series.. South Africa vs. Wales..

I'm hungry as usual...

I'm cursing the administration for starting uni on the 1st and having a submission on the 2nd.. ARRGGHH!!!

I'm wondering what you are up to...

I'm reading blogs...

Cup Victory's

This is a pic of the CUP we retained after the SLIIT big match...

Whatever Happens

Things will never go back to the way they were... It'll never be the same.. I think I realize that now... It's a sad thought but... I guess we all change eventually.. even you...

Things I Must Eventually Accept

I'm never gonna be good enough for my parents..

You don't need me in your life anymore...

Walking away might not solve the problem all the time..

I can't keep floating around any longer...

New Year's Resolutions

hmm.. here's to hoping I stick to them...

1. Stop procrastinating.

2. Workout more.

3. Regain my six packs.

4. Stay away from women.

5. Build up walls around me and keep people out.

6. Stop drinking.

7. Be more religious.

8. Study harder.

Just the Thing that you want to hear from your Parents

" You are such a disappointment"

" We can never depend on you"

Thanks a lot mom and dad.. now let me go blow my brains out...

Obsessive Stupid Thoughts Mulling in my Head

I miss you...

Of Crooked Referee's, Cowardice and Graduation Balls

Oh man what a weekend!! talk about hectic!! had the Match on Saturday evening, then a birthday party in Moratuwa and then the Graduation Ball on Sunday... Sigh.. was thoroughly disappointed about the match.. It was our game.. but the referee started pulling towards the SLIIT guys.. well its to be expected they did organize the match... but still that was the worst officiation that I've seen.. he wrongfully penalized us.. in the end it ended up in a 7-7 draw.. sigh... interesting thing though was the massive fight in the second half with 20 minutes left on the clock.. they started hitting some of our players then we started hammering them.. then the crowd got involved.. it was one huge fight!!... once the dust had settled.. or rather once we broke up the fights.. the idiot ref gave this huge speech on how we shouldntve fought bla bla bla... and refused to officiate the game.. finally got the bugger to referee it again... at that time we were leading 7 -0 then the SLIIT team scored a try and converted.. there was 10 minutes left on the clock and this fool blows full timee!!! I mean WTF?? sigh... so yeah... after the match.. I had to leave early and go to my friends place in Moratuwa for his 21st Birthday Party....

It was fun had a nice time there... danced alot.. cudnt stay long tho.. ma parents were in dehiwala at a homecoming so they came n picked me up.... the next day I find out that after the match and after most of our crowd had gone.. there were 8 of our buggers left and around 30 SLIIT buggers had ganged up on them and beaten the crap out of them.. I was like WTF?? Come On!! 30 against 8!! bloody cowards!! was really pissed off about that!.. BLOODY PUSSIES!!... so sunday was spent lazying away a bit and recooperating from the match and party... then in the evening I went for the Grad Ball!! oh man it was AWESOME!!!! the booze !! the Food!! the Music!! the Latin Dancers :P lol hahahahaha... had a brilliant time.. danced and danced and danced like crazy... ended up coming home only today morning at like 5 AM lol.... man that was one brilliant party!!

So all in all a very very eventful weekend with lots of excitement and disappointment as well... guess thts life though... =D

Match Day Game Face On!!

So I've decided there's noway in hell I'm gonna miss this match!! This is the last match that I'll play for my uni and sickness or no sickness I'm gonna play tomorrow... Here's to hoping we win tomorrow... and for a good clean great game of rugby :D.... even though I'm not 100% fit... my team mates are counting on me and I'm not going to disappoint them... Gonna play tomorrow and we sure as hell gonna WIN!

On the bright side I get to play in my old position =D the one I was born to be in :) Wing Three quarter baby!!... Gonna Run, Gonna Tackle and Gonna WIN!!!

I'm gonna leave you with last years team.....

WTF Happened to Me?

Some people change through time.. some don't.. is it mandatory that we have to change? that we have to adapt to the environment that we live in? I look back at what I was four years back and the comparison appalls me.. Four years ago I was this naive, caring, nice, honest, innocent.. today.. I don't think I have any of those qualities that I had back then..... It's really weird.. what happened to me? why did I change? did I realize that I had changed? Did I do this to myself? Is it a part of the growing up process that we need to change?

I realized today that I haven't been truly.. honest to god happy in four fricking years... that's a bloody long time to be depressed... what the fuck's wrong with me? Why I can't I be happy? Ever heard of the saying " Practice what you preach".. you'll never find a hypocrite greater than me... I've always been the consoler, the shoulder to lean on during tough times, the adviser... It's a role I just stumbled upon one day and it suited me well... I would say things to people and they'd listen and most of the time the advice I would give them would help them out... but did it mean that I believed in what I was telling them? Hell No! I know, I know bloody bogus of me but hey they felt better afterwords..

But somewhere along the lines its all gone astray these days I rarely get into that role as all I seem to do is make things worse... I've become a negative.. somewhere along the way I've become this pessimistic, depressive, dishonest, narcissistic, narrow minded... AGAD! sigh.... Males you wonder.. what in the world happened? Maybe its good that I've been unlucky in love.. I mean look at what I've become.. women would be better off without having someone like me in their life... I'd just drag them down with me...

In Sickness & in Health

I really hate being sick.. absolutely detest and loathe it... when I get sick I get cranky, I get mean. I become a down right pathetic moronic hateful loathsome bastard.. When I get sick I get sick BAAD and I mean BAAD!! heres a list of things that piss me off right now:-

It pisses me off:-

that I might have to miss my match on Saturday on the count that I can barely breathe right now.

that I'm missing today's Christmas party because I'm too sick to attend it.

that someone changed their status to "in a relationship".

that I've screwed up my attendance at uni and these SOB's will never let it go even though I've been sick.

that it keeps on raining every fucking day.

that I can't understand jack of whats been taught at uni.

that someone called me a whiny, spoilt baby.

that other people are happy ( yeah yeah whatever.. DIE U FOOLS)

Now piss off and leave me alone!

Current Physical Status - CPS

"COUGH COUGH COOOOUUUUGGGHHH........"

"AAHH AHHH AAAAHHHCCHHHOOO"

"SHIVER...."

bitch of a cocktail this is... cough, cold and sore throat... plus the fever is on its way sigh.... i hate phlem coughs... fluid in my lungs... tonsils all swollen... cant even swallow food down properly.. nose is like a dripping tap.. sigh...... BEGONE U VILE GERMS!!

Archie Me Boy!

I'm sure all of you all are familiar with Archie Comics... haven't you ever wondered what Archie must be feeling like? I mean he has two really important women in his life: Betty and Veronica, but doesn't know who he really loves... funny situation in it.. both are really beautiful, strong willed girls who love Archie a lot but he cant decide amongst the two.. On one hand you have Betty who is this really pretty, caring and nice girl and then u've got Veronica.. who's this elegant, sophisticated, beautiful girl... personally I think Betty is waaaaay better than Veronica.. but hmm.. ever thought about it from Archie's point of view.. he has these two extremely gorgeous women but cant decide who he wants to be with... funny init..

Wonder if there are situations like that in real life? I know we are all really selfish when it comes to relationships and love but... hmmm.. just makes u think..

Of Illnesses, Confusion and Boredom

sigh.. I'm sick again.. got a bloody sore throat and the sniffles.... sigh.. I hate getting sick... this is so not the time for it.. I have another match on the 20th and this is an important one that I cant afford to miss... life is getting more n more complicated these days.. but then again when was it ever not.. today I met this childhood friend.. well actually still a friend... a neighbour friend one might call him.. an year back he joined the SL Navy and I'm seeing him after a very long time.. OMG he s around 6 feet tall.. and he was really chubby but now :O :O :O he s soooo thin men... he was like O and now he s I... man.. that was a shocker I could barely recognize him... but he s doing good.. even though basic training is really gruelling he s doing good... haiyo I hate being broke. its SUCKS!! I wish I could go out tonight.. sigh... Im soo freakin bored at home with nothing to do.. sigh... no one to talk to as well... sigh.. guess I really am not that much of an introvert lol... Heads messed up again.. still getting weird dreams... sigh.. 2008 why the drama??? ARRRGGHH * mind explodes....

So This Christmas!

hmm... what have I been upto the past year.. let me recall....

* blacked out for the first time on the 1st of jan.. brilliant way to start the new year init..

* went on cool ass trip to unnawatuna with a friend and his pallies, ended having a brilliant time there.

* lost friends and made a whole load of new ones.

* lost a bestfriend.. got her back.. lost her again.. got her back.. and the cycle continues..

* drank a hell of alot this year... became a fully fledged alcoholic.. no im not proud of tht...

* got my heartbroken

* broke other peoples hearts as well

* forgave a few old friends for what they did to me last year..

* witnessed more people from my class get married and one of them even had a kid... which scares the beegeezez out of me.

* stumbled upon kottu

* started my own blog

* got into a very sticky and complicated situation

* did things I never imagined I'd ever do

* gained a hell of a lot of weight.. which i cant seem to get rid of now =(

* went to a uni party where for the first time ever I dint dance at... cos i was blacked out on the couch lol..

* witnessed the best ever concert Lanka has ever hosted..


hmmm... cant think up of anything else... sigh.. still recovering from yesterday lol hehehehe...

BORED OUT OF MA MIND!!!! sure wish I 'd ve gone out tonight sigh....

We Won!! We Won!!

Heheheeh.. Wooo Hooo!! we kicked them ACHE bums asses... even in the rain... oh man what a match... 33-5 bloody good score ne... I was actually nervous because I was playing in a position I've never played before.. outside center.. I'm usually a wing three-quarter... but it was no fuss.. hehehehe.. only problem was I dint get to tackle one guy even.. was a bit sad about that.. went in for a lot of hits but no tackles :( hehehe... but one thing our guys lacked was a bit of discipline and well fitness was low even for me... by the time the second half started I was already gone.. but I was shifted down to full back position and the new guys were brought in to the attack.. hehehe from there on.. ice thama lol... they had even got a trophy done the crystal trophy!! pissu sanda mole... dint expect that.... after the match.. we headed for the usual post-match dinner/booze session.. ended up going to Salaka and eating dinner and drinking old arrack... even got the refs there hehehe... after a few drinks the refs were like.. if any of you guys want to become referee's just tell us and we ll do something hehehe..... overall it was a brilliant day....

On a more serious note... why is it that when it comes to women I get into a cycle of either hurting them or them hurting me... sigh.. I want to break this freaking cycle... I want to have a healthy relationship sigh.. I think I'm gonna go MIA from the dating world for sometime... get my head cleared out.. spend some quality alone time with myself.. scary as that sounds.. Right well its back to practices on Monday got the SLIIT match coming up on the 20th.. thats the important one.. gonna beat those arses to a pulp this year!!

Things I Want

I want.....

To win today's match

To stop recycling

To have him out of your life because I don't think we can be anything if he's still in your life including friends.

To stop being a mess

To have a purpose in life

To be a good son to my parents

To finish my degree with honours

To stop having messed up , freaky dreams
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oh bugger!!.. wrong day to be thinking of this shit... sigh...

Can't Think Up of a Heading Right Now... :S

something a friend of mine texted to me awhile back......

"God determines who walks into you life, you determine who walks out"

interesting..

Kings Of Leon - On Call (live at Later...)

She said call me now baby, and I'd come a running.
She said call me now baby, and I'd come a running.
If you'd call me now, baby I'd come a running.

I'm on call, to be there.
One and all, to be there.
And When I fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there waiting.

To be there.
To be there.

I'm on call, to be there.
One and all, to be there.
And When I fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there waiting.

I'm gon' brawl, so be there.
One for all, I'll be there.
And when they fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there laughing.

I'd come a running.
I'd come a running.
I'd come a running.

To be there.
To be there.

I'm on call, to be there.
I'm on call, to be there.
I'm on call, to be there.
I'm on call, to be there.
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Another great song by the Kings of Leon...
I just can't seem to get enough of them men.. keep listening to this one, use somebody, the bucket and sex on fire over n over again... sigh...

Battered & Bruised

So as most of you would've realized by now I play rugby... die hard fan and love playing the game.. it does get brutal at times but I still love it... I read or heard from somewhere " Football is a gentleman's game played by thugs, whilst Rugby is a thug's game played my gentlemen" interesting statement init hehe.... anyways we have matches coming up so we've been having practices these days... got one on Thursday against ACHE - American College of Higher Education and then another most probably on the 19th against SLIIT. gonna be a good season but hectic with uni lectures n shit.... coming back to the topic today was hard.. had to practice in the rain and the grounds being wet and all... by the time we were done.. we were all covered in mud n muck lol... and on top of that we did tackling as well..

Now I love tackling.. theres no greater feeling than tackling someone and making sure its a nice solid tackle hehehe.. but today with the rain and the soggy conditions oh man its hurt.... I think I bruised a few muscles and have alot of scrapings.. you try tackling someone twice your size and you'll know what being hit by a locomotive feels like... not pretty sight... buggers shoulder rammed against my nose.. then later on I got tackled from the side... I think the bugger knocked against my calf muscle.. hurts like a bitch now although I dint feel anything at the time then... did manage to get in some good tackles as well... over all had a great practice... thursday's match should be an interesting encounter... can't wait to play that match =D...

Reason for this post = "I'm hurting right now.. but its a good hurt I guess.. keeps the emotional demons at bay :)"

Letter of Congratulation

I know we don't speak anymore and neither we will in the future.. but just wanted to wish you congratulations for overcoming 3 years of pure hardship... you really deserve what you worked for.. and I know there were times when you thought it was too hard but you pushed through it.. and you won in the end.... Today you are finally have a Degree Bachelors honors ... so just wanted to say Congratulations to you and may you have a prosperous career and life in whatever you do..

Snow Patrol - Run

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
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Perfect song to say good bye to... :)

Kings Of Leon - Sex On Fire

Lay where you're laying
Don't make a sound
I know they're watching
they're watching

all the commontion
the Kiddie like play
has people talking

You
Your sex is on fire

The dark of the alley
The break of the day
Ahead while I'm driving
I'm driving

Soft lips are open
Them knuckles are pale
Feels like you're dying
You're dying

You
Your sex is on fire
And so
Were the words to transpire

Hot as a fever
Rattling bones
I could just taste it
Taste it

But it's not forever
But it's just tonight
Oh we're still the greatest
The greatest
The greatest

You
Your sex is on fire
You
Your sex is on fire
And so
Were the words to transpire
And You
Your sex is on fire
And so
Were the words to transpire
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Another brilliant song from Kings of Leon and currently my handle hehehe =D

Kings Of Leon - Use Somebody

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see
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stumbled upon this song.... starting to really love this band...

When I'm Right I'm Sooo Right!

Told you that you dint love him...

Told you that you dint want to be with him...

Told you that you were just lying to yourself...

Told you that you will come to your senses someday...

Told you I cant be bothered waiting here to pick up the pieces after what you put me through...

Told you so...

How Drunk is Drunk Enough?

so I was watching this movie the other day called " The Legend of the Baggavance" or something like that.. it has cherlize theron, will smith, matt damon in it.. its basically some blooming golf movie but there was one part in it where it kind of got my attention... theres this one scene where this boy comes searching for matt damon who's a wash out golfer... and he's in a barn with a few men drinking and playing cards... the boy asks a question there... How drunk, is drunk enough? and this is what matt damon replies...

"Rannulph Junnah (Matt Damon): Now, the question on the table is how drunk is drunk enough? And the answer is that it's all a matter of brain cells

Hardy Greaves(The Kid): Brain cells?

Rannulph Junnah(Matt Damon): That's right Hardy. You see every drink of liquor you take kills a thousand brain cells. Now that doesn't much matter 'cos we got billions more. And first the sadness cells die so you smile real big. And then the quiet cells go so you just say everything real loud for no reason at all. That'ok, that's ok because the stupid cells go next, so everything you say is real smart. And finally, come the memory cells. These are tough sons of bitches to kill."

hehehehe I was like Damn!! thats so true....

Setpitin Gaseema! ( Bringing a Gang to a Fight )

So.... something happened at Onstage which kind of annoyed the crap out of me... but still I didn't let it affect my mood too much... well let me start from the beginning.. I used to belong to this forum which was in a more hard heavy metal kinda site.... and well I used to also be in this podcast site where I used to host a show... well.. as a promotion we decided to advertise the podcast site on this forum... but the response from it especially from a certain individual who I wont reveal because I don't sink so low.. was not very nice... it was just downright nasty.... this person is well... a vocalist of a band.. and well in what he said kinda really ticked me off.. so in retaliation I commented on the forum that he didn't have that a good voice.. which is my opinion of it... and he really took offense to it... and he started cursing me in pure filth blaa blaa... and even used my real name.... anyways... I really didn't care because well I don't keep grudges over trivial things like this...

So at Onstage all of a sudden a friend who knew this scene comes and tells me... "Dude if someone asks your name don't say it" :S I was like huh?? WTF..... anyways later on I find out that these guys, including that vocalist... had heard that I was going to be there and they wanted to beat me up.... I was like huh what the hell.. is he still pissed off over some stupid incident which happened so long ago... sheesh... I've never understood this bringing your gang of friends to beat up one poor guy concept... frankly telling I'm a peace keeper rather than a fighter... but if the need arises I will fight back.. I recall many a rugby match but well.. thats another story altogether.... I mean ok fine.. you want to hammer someone.. well then do it on your own... why bring a gang?? wheres the honour in that?? and why fight over something as soo trivial as this?? I mean come on... are we that immature... I tell you this mate... If you do come across this post... I have no personal beef watsoever with you... I love metal just as much as anybody else... and well ok fine maybe I hurt your feelings or something by saying you had a crappy voice... well... that was my opinion of it and well I apologize for it... but still... to keep a grudge over something like this?? :S :S :S I just find that downright weird... there are much better things to do man...

Anyways.. this was the only low point for me at this years onstage... overall it really was AWESOME!!... my neck still hurts from all that head banging... hahahaha.... I read a couple of moments ago.. a fellow blogger comment on respecting other peoples music choices... which is so true man... I mean you can't expect everyone to be like you... people might not agree sometimes.. thats just the way of the world.. you learn to deal with it...